| Well, well. Its been sometime since i posted a new blog on here, Imoved to myspace. if ya care its myspace.com/kylehood but im sure no one does cause like who in the hell vists this, if you do leave a comment, if i know you or don't just leave something, random shit i don't care just want to see if people still vist.
Ok now on to the reason im here, as i have mention eariler i have moved to myspace, and add some of my family and friends, so i couldn't post anything that was too bad, cause people are rats, and rat me out. so which brings me to here, i came here just to rant and get some shit off my chest, with out hearing the bitching at me. now if you are one of the people im ranting about or are close to them or close to me, DO NOT talk to me about this i will so deny it and bring hell down upon you, however if you do not fall in to one of these catagorys then feel free to comment, cause most likly i woun't give a fuck what you think. (just speaking the truth, not discourgeing you not to comment). So with no feather delay let the heartach spill.
P.S. This was going to sound a lot better, but one of my friends had to go and cheer me up a little, so...meh.... its not going to be as ranting as i wanted it to be.
*SHIT WAS EDITIED CAUSE OF DAMN SPIES*
I also think so lless of myself. I mean my heart ............fuck its hard to switch subjects kinda. ah fuck it i;ll just go stright in to it, disreguarding all other feelings rememeber. Love, it just so fucking hard, i,ve "loved" maney girls before, and been turned down harsly by everyone, so i know alot about heart break. And one thing that i wish for the most, that would make me feel happy, 24/7 is love. Not jungle love just romantic love, i guess would be best way to say it. which i guess brings me to this in a dumb way. I have fallen in love with one of my female friends, and to avoid using names which is totally fucking pointless, just easier way to deny it, I'll call her Mai Kawaii Hime ^_^. But see it not as easy as that, thier are several complex roadblocks. When im round her, im just happy. she just brings out the better side of me. A side that i have never let out often. I also just love talking to her. And we get along so well, consdering i'v only know her for like 3 months. But ONE problem is i don't know if its because i really love/like her or if its just a false love due to the fact of how i feel when im around her and being the closest friend girl i'v had, which as happen once before in 10th grade, started hanging out with my friend jenny, and i developed a crash on her, who happen to have a boyfriend and was trying to get married to him. So i don't know what to think, and the thing that sucks is when i fall for someone i fall hard for them. lucky i have been able to kinda balance it out to where it keep me from falling hard, but im sinking. Now for Problem TWO, this isn't that much of a problem really, condersing it would never come to the point of becoming a problem. but one of my best friends likes her to, and hes been at it much longer then i. and if anything ever did develop, which i have more of a chance of mars falling on my head, i think it would cause i problem between me and my friend, and dat would suck. But now problem THREE and this is the biggest and really the only problem, cause as long as this is a problem the other two are rather pointless. the problem is that she is getting married in less then a week. Which makes me upset, for many reasons, one i feel that it too early, the realationship needs to be atleast a year old of dating. and two she'll be movin far way, yeah i'll still be able to talk to her over the internet, but thats not the same talking in person and hanging out, and third if she gets married then shes off the market inless a breakage happens, which is kinda mean to think about it cause i would rather have her be happy, but its hard knowing someone you like is gettin married and your chance is gone, i just wished i would have met her several months ago,. But the only thing i can do for her as a friend is to be supportive of her decesion, no matter wat it means, after all she is an adult, i can't make her do what i want, though that would be cool ^.~ lol j/k, so I'll just have to stand by and cheer her on and hopes she'll be happy. Love ya Mai Kawaii Hime
and whole shit it 4 in da morin and im about to pass out. so fuck it. remember whats said on here but fucking stay on here, don't even talk to me about outside of here. inless you think you can withstand my heavenly wrath. |
